No, Ron. Never.
I was looking at safe/panic rooms, and this gif came up. It resonates with me on a wholly limbic level. I wonder how many times this has been playing inside me while on the outside all you see is this.
Though I’m making great strides with myself, I am in a constant state of panic these days.
My brother’s wedding is in three weeks, and I’ve told him I’m going to be there. When I said that I didn’t realize Ron Weasley would be my plus one. I’m not ready!
Too bad.
I’m trying to do better at being a woman of my word instead of a people pleaser. It’s a tough gig for someone who likes to keep people happy. People at work, people at home, people on the internet, people I stalk on Facebook whom I haven’t met, people who can’t be pleased no matter what, AND people who are dead.
(Dust hands) That should cover it.
Aye, aye, aye…
I’ve decided to work next fall, but a less punishing schedule and fewer hours. I’ve told myself it is my job to also use my time more wisely, and when people ask me to work for them, I’m to say, “I’m working my other job that day.” That’s it, nothing more, shut your mouth and walk away.
Today I had fun putting together a box for a reader. I autographed the first book ever. I hope she enjoys reading it and all the little surprises I slipped between the pages. PLUS some ND goodies. I wonder if it’s more the relief of a promise kept than the fun of it? Whatever mix of the two, it made for a good day.
This was also a good week for BTS, Billboard’s BEST GROUP (beating out Imagine Dragons, Maroon 5 and Panic at the Disco!) and top SOCIAL ARTIST! Let’s all celebrate by watching their new music video Boy With Love guest starring Halsey.
They ROCKED the Billboard stage and Army was there in full glory puzzling the rest of the performers with the BTS Fan Chant. LOVE IT! My girls and I are a bit sad we aren’t going to a stadium this weekend or next… sigh. NEXT YEAR, yeah, we’re totally going again, when this isn’t such a good depiction of us.
On the writing front, I’m considering releasing a book called Oasis. It’s an erotic novel that I really love. Stupid Chapter 10 is still giving me a pain when I read it, so I’m considering a few small changes, but otherwise, it’s a pretty cool story. The main characters are a disenchanted Knight of the Crusades and a woman sold into an Arabic harem as a teenager who has done her time and is heading back home to England on her stolen horse. The most beautiful horse I could find for her. A Lusitano Silver Buckskin Stallion named Belial. 
I want to write about adoption as well but haven’t decided if I should approach it as Fiction or Non-Fiction. Feeling the influence of all the K-drama’s I’ve been watching, I even thought about writing the story of a Korean who arrives in Seoul for the first time at the age of 38. So many possibilities.
But first, my younger brother’s wedding. Maybe an afternoon with my Mom’s oldest sister, and finally meeting the cousin who helped me put all the pieces together on Ancestry. I hope this roller coaster has shoulder straps. Where are my sunglasses? Hmm, maybe a bucket by my feet, a perfect playlist peppered with K-pop…
Wonderful to read your thoughts again! Have a great time at the wedding and hope to see Oasis in print very soon!
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Yes, because I do very soon so terribly well….
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You had a great smile at 19 too!! Such warm inviting eyes. Sad to think you were faking so much back then. Hopefully you are moving towards real happiness! And if you release Oasis, perhaps a Kobo version??
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Thank you. I didn’t appreciate that version of me enough. lol
I’ll look at Kobo, or send you a complimentary copy.
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I feel guilty accepting a complimentary copy. I’d rather support your writing in a tangible way!
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Lol, poor Liz is going to have to teach me Kobo! You can submit your apologies there.😉
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Wow, no reason for panic there at all (sarcasm). I mean, a certain amount of anxiety is normal in a situation like this no?
Oasis is HAWT.
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Yes, a certain amount.
I find myself wishing I was one with overblown confidence. Just for this year.
Thanks for the Oasis love!
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I forgot to say that the idea of treating your work time like it is your job is a really important step to take. (It’s never worked esp well for me but I am starting to realize maybe I just lack the necessary self-discipline and determination.)
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I think my biggest obstacle in marking time as my own is that I don’t appreciate myself like other people do. I don’t generate that feeling of satisfaction when I have pleased myself like I do when I make someone else happy. That will make no sense at all to anyone that doesn’t feel deeply the subject. 😳🤔🙃
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yes — I am not maybe SO into pleasing others but it’s very hard for me to say no to other people’s demands. Then when I do get free space I have to spend a disproportionate amount of time calming myself down / regaining emotional equilibrium. I spend so much time looking for that sweet spot where I can write, but first I have to process everything that was said to me that day, and my feelings about it, and so on. I really envy people who can say “I have a half hour now, I am going to write a paragraph.” I am not that person.
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Me either. I’ve started meditating but that’s still time I’m not writing…
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So glad to see read your writing again and can’t wait for Oasis. I hope you find a level of peace and self confidence and enjoy your brother’s wedding. Thanks for sharing.
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Thank you! Only seven work days left till summer officially starts for me! Looking forward to catching up reading a lot of blog posts and stories I’ve missed.
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In the end, we are who we are and if someone doesn’t like us, there is usually nothing we can do about it. Better to be honest in who you are than pretend so someone you don’t know will like you better. Hope your trip goes well.
I want to see your Oasis in print. Hardback too. I hope you keep the Dark Knight’s name the same, you should be able to since it is public domain. Not that I would tell you how to do your job. 😊
I purchased Solitude and now think it will make a really nice surprise birthday gift for a friend at the end of the year. But I won’t be giving her my copy. ha ha
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You are too sweet!
I haven’t gotten my Solitude yet! Too much on my desk still. But SUMMER IS COMING!!!!
I won’t be making changes to Oasis, just grammar work and finally fixing chapter 10.
I’ll take pictures and blog about my trip. Otherwise I might not survive it. haha
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Ha
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Damn, I didn’t mean to type ‘Ha’ and hit send. I meant to say; Have a great trip and I look forward to reading about your adventures. 🌷🌼🦋
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HA was a good reply. I leave in four days, the countdown is on!
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I haven’t read any BTS Fan Fiction. I learned my lesson with The Hobbit, lol.
Glad you enjoyed the post!
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Will do.
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